Depression post.
Don't read it if you can't take it.
I am being childish and start blaming all the way.
BECAUSE I AM STAYING STILL FOR MONTHS
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Maybe this is the real Uni life.
Maybe I am not good enough.
Maybe I am not as perfect as other people.
Maybe I am just simply stupid.
Have been working really hard for the past few months.
Maybe not hard enough.
I always wanted to be competitive
I always wanted to be one of the top
I always wanted to be the one who you mention and everyone's reaction will only be "wow, she is good!"
Maybe I am just not good or even qualify enough to be like this.
Maybe I am way too greedy
Maybe I am just naive.
I really cannot already.
I have been doing so hard like so hard.
Lecturer like this.
Met group mate like this some more, how to even live.
I want to complain like them.
Complain everything I can like them, but...
Things always come to my mind
There are always something told me "you complain also useless, go do it"
Ok, I will be the one who do it AGAIN.
People be like "Nevermind la, we got Kelly mah"
Yes, and then all of sudden it become my responsibility to do it and help them.
Can someone, just one person, stop taking me for granted.
I don't expect you will appreciate my hardworking what so ever.
I am the one who willing to do these but please can you all just don't take me for granted and
expect me to do everything myself
and then complain to me when things went wrong
What I hate the most, when people keep on nagging nagging nagging nagging infront of me
Complain complain complain so muchhhhh
BUT NEVER WANT TO DO A THING
I am already reaching the level where I don't want to talk to human anymore
You know for all these months
I have learnt that, to certain people you don't have to be kind
Seriously, your kindness will only spoil them and making hard time for you.
I remember I read an article
they mentioned that, do not mix up both work and friendship together.
At first I don't agree with it, but now I understand.
You have to separate everything clearly in order to not being stupid.
Moreover *essay mood*
Friendship is not that easy to build. I am serious.
Maybe my insecurity very high, I am so sensitive if comes to meet new people
All of sudden.
I was not like that back then.
I was not.
I don't know what makes me be like this
but don't worry I am still friendly, I won't give you resting bitch face when you smile at me.
Just I don't want to create problem again.
Damn sien one when people are dramatic and hate you all of sudden
I have been through all these and this is sucks
I think I am just trying to avoid problems
YES I AM
Someone motivate me and inspire me or just tell me
"Is okay.. You are doing well. Keep going. You will success one day"
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