The end of 2016.

"Not everyone you thought you care about will care for you the same as you did to them."

This post will gonna be so dark.

Through out the whole year, the most suffering was actually the first few months of the year.
where my STPM result came out and also my UPU result.
You just can not understand that feeling of when you did all your hard work
and you get nothing pay back.

All the hardship where I've been through in 2015 was crazy.
The moment I got my first result, I am totally OFF.
Instantly system shut down.
I burst into tears. I know I cry a lot too but really..
Instantly, tears come out.
When your favorite course can never be in the list anymore and your dream will never achieve.

The darkest moment of my life.

It was just the beginning of my life.
Unfortunately...

I also realized that
When you are not in the list, you will never be in the list no matter how hard you tried.
It's not about the hard work you gave, it is just simply about you are not the one

All the hard work you gave will never be enough
All the things you have done will never satisfy them
It is just simply because you are not my cup of tea

How sad it is.
Life does not favor you all the time.

I once saw

"Adore those who ignore, ignore those who adore"

When I first saw this sentence, I was like what kind of logic is this
but now, I understand and I even feel it.

Thank you for making me become stronger
Thank you for making me become more independent
Thank you for making me understand what is LIFE.

"Enough is enough."

I always remind myself, but I can never make it.

That's how my 2016 gone.

Still very thankful for people who stay by my side when I was in my worst.

Happy New Year