Bad days af

Serious bad days.
Bad luck have no mercy to me.
Shoot me as hard as it can.

Since the early of September.
Since the very first of this month.
Sometimes Im kinda feel like giving up everything and run away.
I know, end up I get nothing.
Process is way too suffer for me.

One more month left to hell month.
Every repeat papers one by one strike into my head.
Every hopeless thoughts, every negative thoughts strike me no mercy.
I know I should've be positive but how?
With these conditions how?

Im tired.
Mentally, physically.
I know I have to go through.
I know but Im just tired.

Went into depress mood.
A serious depress mood.

Oh God, I need you.
They are bullying me.

I don't know what to do.

Once my friend said "Is like that de lo. You have to go through all by yourself"
I know, everyone is growing up.
Everyone have their own life already.
Shit life hit me so hard.

I really hope I can go through this.
They said "You will see the rainbow after the rain"
Rainbow will go away also.
We can only see rainbow when the timing is right.
See, I can even change something positive to negative.

What if I cant do it?
What if this thing follow me forever?
What if my future is really dark?
What if I cant make it?

I don't know.
I know keep on worrying doesn't help but I just couldn't stop worrying.
Useless also tell other people my problems.
They will give you the same answer "You can do it."

Thanks for trying your very best.
I know, thats still my problem.
I know, isn't yours.
I know, Im bullshitting.
I know, sorry.

I see no future on myself.
Motivations turn into fear.
My life now is full of fear.
Stress begin.

I can feel it.
Thanks for coming.

Is curse thou.
Odd year sure bad luck af.
I will sure lose many things in odd year.
I don't know why but yea..
And the most shitty thing is..
Everytime big exam sure in odd year.

Someone cursed me. haha
I don't know, just sayin'

I will be fine ;)