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I always don't know what to put as my title.
I always don't know.
Just like I don't know what actually I want.

The very first time I felt so complicated
The very first time I don't know what I want

Im seriously want you to read this blog, seriously.

November, exam month.
Kay, so nice to tell you I have to repeat sem 1.
I always avoid this thing to happen but it did happened.
Thank you lah STPM.

Let me tell you this one whole year, what had I done.

January till March, SPM freedom.
Work hard at ma ma's shop.
Playing around at church.
Busy life, freedom life, happy life.

April, PLKN life started.
That was awesome thou
Due to form 6 start at May actually,
I take pelepasan awal and went into form 6 which I was late
and didnt manage to join the orientation.
Kay, Im done when Im in.
Muka bengong went in, still so naive to believe STPM wasn't that hard.
Didn't work that hard for first few months.
My fault kay I know.
After my first trial exam result came out, oops, no. The one and only one trial exam =.=
Kay, I knew that I have to work hard.
very hard, cause believe me you don't ever want to know that freakin result, never.
Now my sem 1 finished, I also knew that i have to repeat. For sure.
Too confident create disaster.
Kay..

Finished my work life.
Now change topic.
The biggest disaster in these few months, me.
Yes, me.
I made too much trouble for myself.
I think too much. My biggest problem.
Im so tired.
Thank you lah this thing won't take long.
I hope so. hahaha..
I hate myself sometimes, I put too much hope on something that I knew it is hopeless.
Whenever I pull myself out, something pull me back in even deeper.
The only way to get rid of this is to be very very mean to myself.
But I don't want to because I know I will go in to a very very depress mood
which I don't like it.
I will die if I do this to myself, trust me because I experienced before.
See, now I don't know what I want.
Flip table.

Went to Holy Spirit camp last few days.
Kay, I really really experienced that 0km distance between God and I.
I never felt this way before in my life until that day.
You can feel the power went into your whole body.
When sister put her hands on my head, that power I really feel it.
From the deep of my heart I feel so so thankful.
If he didnt exists I don't think Im exists too in this world.

So blessed to join the camp.
so so blessed.

With these peeps.
So great to have you all.
Maggie at 11.19pm.
Midnight 1.30am talk.
and girls are always lazy.
hahahahahaha...

Hi Qi.
The 14 and 18 but so friend.
She too mature or I got a kid mind?
hahahahahah
My another selfie partner.
Noob snapchat user.
hahahahah..

Hi sister, thanks for the inner healing

Hi senior. hahahha..
small world let me meet him.
Thanks for those advice.
That hour midnight talk worth it.
Your words wake me up. Thank you

Hi St.Mary :D

Thanks god let me join this camp. So blessed.

Continue with this event.
Come join us.
Please god, please give me the strength to host this event successfully.